Contentment is it possible, you bet!

Hello friends,

This week has been so crazy; Work has blossoms along with the snow drops. I am very thankful for this indeed, but along with the craziness of melding into my husbands business comes that slight feeling of discontent.

As you to remember I am a childcare worked at heart and the “chicken thing” has always been his. He has always droned on about all things poultry, and I like the good wife would do the compulsory nod, and uhmm hmm’s

This has served our relationship well, that is until he got the call to move here, and include ME.

Now I am destined to smell like a chicken, talk like a chicken girl and see chickens every where I go!

You ever notice that when you were pregnant you saw pregnant women every where. Well let me tell you it is no different with chickens, Heck I see them every where, the side of the road, in fields, on fast food restaurant signs…every where. I even see and hear them in my dreams. Ahhhh…..

On this vein of thought, and really I am going somewhere with this, I promise!

While I was washing very poop y very stinky chicken crates I was contemplating the fate my life has taken and thinking about the conversation I had with my good friend E.

Why are we not content?

What is this dissatisfaction that we feel, and what purpose does it serve in our lives?

These are questions I have been struggling with not only since I moved here but I guess if I am honest with you my whole adult life.

My friend says our discontentment is rooted in our expectations. What we expect from people, relationships, life, God, ourselves. I think she has something there. What do you expect from Life?

 Is it to have a big house, a caring handsome husband, kids who make you proud, a job where you are respected and valued?

All those things are great and nice, but will they make you happy? 

I have a sneaky suspicion they won’t.

I am sure I am not the only person in the world who feels this way!

You know me and the journey I am taking so I don’t have to remind you that I am trying to simplify and streamline my life. In this process I have needed to take a good hard look at who I am and the person I am becoming.

This is what I have found. I need to be content in all things, good, bad and the stinky!

I need to check my expectations of myself, others and even God at the door.

I can’t put God in a box; I can’t look at life like a candy store, that sweet gratification that doesn’t last, past the lips.

I am not content because I am expecting my life to be perfect, I think I should be happy all the time. Don't get me wrong I am a happy person most of the time, it is when I let this seed of discontentment grow that it roots out my naturally joyful self. 

So what purpose does this feeling have in my life?

It brings me to my knees. 

It makes me consider more than just my self, it smothers out selfishness and makes me depend and trust my best friend, my father, my God. 

I think God left this Jesus shaped hole in us so that we couldn't feel satisfied until we filled our emptiness with him, and only in his great love for us can we feel truly fulfilled.

 Nothing is too big for him.

So that’s where I am at today lifting up my empty hands to the only one who can fill them. Peace, contentment and joy, It can be yours as well, you only need to ask.

So when you stop by for tea, see me dressed in rubber outerwear, a pressure washer in my hand poop splatter all over me and a smile of contentment on my face you will know why.

 God has given me more than my wildest dream could imagine, a life of adventure and discovery. Who could ask for anything more?

1 Corinthians 7:17 

Only let each person lead the life that the Lord has assigned to him, and to which God has called him. This is my rule in all the churches.