Friday 14 September 2012

My Birthday Blessings :-)

Whew, I am so very tired!
I realised that I have not written on my little Blog in quite some time.
 Hey a new record.
I must admit I have been consumed by school work and my actual real paid job!
Who knew this could be so time consuming. I have to say though, I am enjoying the new level of closeness I have experienced with my children.

OK so there is the new level of frustration as well, but this is a happy post so we will not talk about that. Nope, not even the I hate you MOM's or the, this was the worst idea you ever Had's...haha ops. Let it slip!

But really I am enjoying the cuddling and learning going on in our home.
I especially love seeing what they are doing and being involved in the day to day beauty of growth. Ya, ya only two week I know...

But that is not what I intended to post on today.
It was my Birthday a few weeks ago, and with my birthday usually comes a touch of sadness.
Not this September!                                                                     
If you care to join me in a long story I will share.
 Call it a testimony if you will.

As I think you have probably gathered I did not have a very nurturing environment growing up.
My mom had serious health issues along with some addiction problems.
It was just the three of us my mother, my Older half brother, who was very abusive and explosive to live with, and I.
When I was 12 years old my mother told me that I was the product of a rape this information to a tender, sensitive young girl was pretty devastating.
 Prior to this she told me my father died in a war, so every remembrance day I would  grieve the "loss of the father I never knew, this was a lie.

Heavy I know! So sorry :-)

Any how this became my identity, I felt dirty, unlovable and not worthy.

 My Birthday was a reminder of this pain.
What I knew about God and his love for me could not seem to cover the sins of my father. Also the verse "Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation.”
Kinda haunted me growing up.
I didn't look at the whole picture. I believed God would punish me for my Fathers sins. That was a lie as well.

Through counselling, and prayer I have been freed from the pain and hurt of my childhood. But what really changed me is my Daddy.
Not my biological father but my one true Daddy the father who will never leave me, the one who held that tender young girl close to his heart.

 God was working behind the scenes creating in me a work of art, a mosaic if you will. A sculptor creating beauty out of broken pieces, fragmented bits worked together into a whole picture.
Now don't get me wrong the "project" is not completed quite yet, but I see his hand in every twist and turn my life takes! 
So whew, long story to get to the end, but here we are. :-) Yay!

So as you can imagine every birthday I have now I want to have a party!
 A big Ol' Happy darn Birthday to me party,
why because God made me, and heck why not! It's fun......
One problem my husband really does not believe in birthdays for adults silly, silly man!

So guess what?
Yes you, Guess....
A beautiful angel sent from "my Daddy" throws ME a Birthday party!
Can you say happy, that was me!
Happy as a wet frog on a rainy day (I'm guessing here, are frogs happy when wet, What does a wet frog look like when happy?.... something to Google....never mind)

This beautiful, wonderful woman who has been put lovingly in my life, sweetly throws me the BEST birthday bash of my whole adult life, not even knowing how special it meant to me!

 So here I am to say THANK YOU!

Isn't life wonderful? So full of blessings and wonder!
My friends, I hope you are filled with the love and forgiveness only God can give,
and a big county hug to you!

Psalm 18:1-3,28,35
I will love You, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised; So shall I be saved from my enemies.

For You will light my lamp; The LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.You have also given me the shield of Your salvation; Your right hand has held me up, Your gentleness has made me great.


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